A message I never sent….

Okay well you are probably never going to see this message but I have to get it out and this is close enough for now I guess. I love you more than any set of lovely laced words can describe, there is nothing that I can do to ever show you how I feel, especially after the things I have done in the past. I’m sorry, I know it isn’t good enough but with the way I feel I am ashamed to even say that. “I’m sorry” like I deserve to be forgiven or something, I don’t deserve anything from you, not even the friendship that you give me now, but I will take everything I can get. I feel like a fish and you are the water, so very far away, sometimes I get upset because you have gone so far away, but it was me that left you, I spend so much time in pure heartache begging your soul to come back to mine, I’m incomplete without you in my life and not in the way where it feels like there is a pit that can’t be filled but more like someone is slowly slicing off my limbs, and there is nothing I can do to ever get them back, and nothing will ever be good enough, you were my reason to go on, you were the reason I tried so hard, now that my reason is gone I know I will fail, I will die alone and bitter, and I have no one to blame but myself. My greed, and lust got in my way, threw away the best thing I ever had in my life just so that I could get laid, because right now is all my simple brain thinks of most the time. Lately though, all I think of is the future, and it scares me so much, remember when we would say that we can’t see a future without the other, well it’s true, we said no matter what happened it would always get fixed, but now I’m broken because I broke you. I know it is what I deserve and I know I wont be able to feel what I have done to you because you are to good a person to ever treat someone the way I have you, but this hole in my heart is pretty damn close I think. I love you so very much and now I will never know what it will be like to wake up with you by my side everyday for the rest of my life like I planned, instead there will be another mans arms wrapped around you someday, that scares the living shit out of me, but I have no right to complain, I did this to myself and now I live with my pain, the truth I don’t want to get over this or feel better, I don’t want to move on I will love you until the day that I die and it wouldn’t seem right to ever be with someone else, so I will move on the best I can but there will always be that hope resting on the back of my mind, hoping that one day it will be possible to actually show you exactly what I feel because I vow right now if the chance ever comes back my way I will love you and cherish you more than life itself, I will never mistreat you, take you for granted, or pretend like you are anything less than a goddess in my eyes, you are the perfect woman for me and although at some point you may find someone better than me, I can’t find better than you so why try. I will always be here for you no matter what you need, I’m always here to catch you even if you don’t want me to and I will never ever ever, stop loving you. I wish I could say all these things to your face, but a promise is a promise and I said I wouldn’t bring it up, so my feelings are my secrets alone and unshared, there is nothing to do now but wait, pray, and hope that eventually my dues will be paid and there is something that I can do to dig myself out of this grave.

frothyfrothy-loins:

zakdamien:

dragulationcomplete:

 selbink:

I cant believe justin bieber poisoned our water supply, burned our crops, and delivered a plague unto our houses

He did?!

No, but are we gonna wait around until he does!?

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John Oliver from The Daily Show Presents Gun Control to America - Imgur

Whoop dee fucking doo indeed.

Ever feel like the Daily Show does better reporting and REAL questioning than most news shows?

It’s satire only reveals more truth than not.

All the damn time.

I will always reblog this.

bless this fucking show.

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marciantobay:
This needs more notes.

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT



I tried to scroll past it. I honestly tried

insanetwin:

frostymaggie:

rabbivole:

marciantobay:

This needs more notes.

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT

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I tried to scroll past it. I honestly tried

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Sometimes moving on, just isn’t possible no matter how hard you try.

lolweed:

this nigga is hackysacking smoke. 

lolweed:

this nigga is hackysacking smoke. 

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You can’t breathe - so you write.
Anonymous (via metacatarsis)

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Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word
George R.R. Martin (via prosektorium)

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